i'm a lonely person , i have nothing in my life , i'm just a bored person who don't know how to make people happy , laugh and smile . please hate me and i'll appreciate that . please hate me if that make you happy . please forget me if that make you happier . the pain is there to remind me that I'm still alive . i'm sorry if i hurt your feeling but i have to do this all because i love you . smile and make you think I’m happy , I talk and make you think I love me . I laugh, so you don’t see me cry , I look at you and hide the pain inside . I feel myself dying but you see me survive . hmm people always say to follow your heart but what they don't tell you . Is that , just because you follow your heart , it doesn't mean there'll be a happy ending . im sorry , if you don't understand my silence . you'll never understand my words . my tears fall for the one who said would never make me cry :( and that's why I love walking in the rain .... because there will be no one knows i'm crying . do you know why I hate myself ? I’m selfish , lonely , annoying , but the main reason I hate myself is because I am me . do you know what its like to look in the mirror and hate everything you see ? welcome to my life . yaww , im not a suitable girl for you and i believe that you are belong to that girl , sorry to say but i have to :( im sure that the girl is waiting for you always && always , fullstop .p/s : you're everything I never knew I always wanted, I cant stand the pain and I cant make it go away :( i need someone to hug ! , bestie where are you ? i need to share something :(